April 4, 2012 4:38 AM PDT
Lets start with the usal I AM SORRY. Some things I say will piss off some people. If you read this and your pissed.
So lets start.
Over the years I ve bucked the system. I ve pushed my way thur life and played by my own set of rules 80% of the time dancing on the gray areas and a few dips in to the red area. But age caught up with me. I gave up drugs, I gave up Heavy drinking, Got a real job, Cut my hair, Went to school to finely to be leagle. Bought a house. Quit droping my pants at the drop of pair of panties. Got married for my 3rd time. Raised or raising some 9 childen not all where mine or my wifes. Raised 2 others that had nothing to do with me or the wife.
Anyways I degress.
A few years ago we had one of those nights where you have gotten in to bed and the rest of the world dosent want you to sleep. Our 4th Daughter had just moved home. Any ways about 10:30 at night shes busts in to my and the wifes bed room and asks if her freind can stay with us for a few days. I had just really settled in to the fact that I was no long growing a famlie. I tell her no. as I am explaing why. She burst out her freind has a 6 month old baby also. This changes everthing. I have a real soft spot for the little ones. So I ask the wife what see thinks? We have to do somthing was her ancer. So we offer her a place to stay for 15 days! No more.
The next day she asks if its ok to leave her baby with me wile she runs to town and get some dypers and smokes. I ve taken care of little ones before no issues here. Yea why not. We didnt see her for 3 months after that. When we did see asked us to take care of her daughter till she could get clean of drugs. Nothing new here we had done this before for others\\\\. So just so we could take her to doctors and any other thing that might happen. We asked her to give up her parenting rights. Mind you thinking a few months mabie a year. 2 and 1/2 years latter. We get a visit from the Lilliewa Tribe. It turns out the little girl I had growen so attached to was indian. My responce was big deal. My 2 nd son is Nez Perice Tribe. It was.
During this time I had my Hart Attack. My own daughter "Trinity Jewels" asked if we where going to lose our little girl. Under the act ICWA we had no rights to even fight for her. {ICWA is the Indina Child Welfair Act} I even hid our little girl for a day with close freinds. I served a day in jail for that little act of defiance. {My **** YOU to the system} I had a juge refuse to convict me of any crime other than to refuse a lawfull order of a policeman. fine was 49.00 bucks. She also in open court said she would have done the same thing. In the end we gave up under the pressure of a system thay built to pull apart a happy famlie JUST BECUSE SHE WAS 10% indian. ICWA is at best a real bull shit pulled to keep numbers in tribes high enuff to keep reciving moneys from the goverment. Its been less than a year sence Little Lilly went to live with the tribe. Weve never heard a word from them as to how things are going for are littlest girl. I still get up in the morning and wonder about for a bit looking for her to get ready for the trip out to the buss to put Trinity Jewels on the bus. The pain runs deep.
Anyways My son is law Danny is fighting the system for his kids from the EX. 3 kids 2 boys and a girl. Thay spend weekends with Danny and hang out at Pa Pa house becuse Trintiny and Joe have some cool toys and I still cook like the army is still here. So theres always plenty to munch on.
Not to go to far in to it. But there mom has some personal issuse and is dealing with a system. May end doing some jail time for these issues.
I feel as thought theres a real need to help. But after this last year I am just about spent not only money but the real feelings. Dannys a great guy. I feel close to him as thought he is one of my own. But I am scared that after years of dealing with this hes dommed to feel as thought hes failed his childen if he should fail in gaing control of the kids. he cant afford a lawyer nor can we. So I get to play lawyer.